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The Little Review

Poem for Wednesday

By Aaron Baker

Where memory divides like the first language
we kneel in the stained light of a chapel.
My father in a white shirt with rolled sleeves.
My mother's skirt gathered at her knees.

Anoint, Lord, their lips. The Holy Spirit speak
through each word and work of your servants —
this man — this woman — these two small boys —
as they labor in your fields

From the subaqueous green at our backs,
the congregation is a warm breath that would raise us
as the minister moves between us for the laying on of hands.

When his palm moves from my shoulder
to my brother's, I close my eyes,
flex my fingers. Only my strength is in them.


Behind my grandmother's house,
light flares and dies in pastures above the evergreens.

This is the Northern silence, the smell of sap,
cold verticals and empty interiors.

The place before tree was yaku bane and rain kamun,
the place where memory would say it was from
when it left the tangled Papuan forests and wandered overseas.


With sixty native carriers, five gun-boys
watching the hillsides, the expedition
presses far into unmapped country.

Michael Leahy, camera and carbine slung on his shoulder,
considers the Wagai's terraced hillsides,
smoke curling above villages:

A valley of perhaps twenty thousand souls.

Gold-pans clatter as the column snakes through riverbeds
and along naked steeps. So far from their frontiers
there is no language here the interpreters will know.

It is not only necessary to establish communication
for trade and organizing labor, but to avoid hostilities.
Despite our guns, in this country it would be outright massacre

Cries — like those of frightened birds — fly between hilltops.


Ni, father. Na, me.

Nina kata pagwa ene ditena ugwa:
              My father has come to tell you something.

Beyond the screened porch where I do math
our gardens spill down to the Ghanigai.

I draw straight lines along the ruler-edge
between points A and B

and pretend not to notice children watching
from bamboo groves beside the garden.

My father has gone to the men's house.
Two days ago I saw him, golden beard and dusty khaki,
crouched with two men in the shade of a banana tree.
His eyes rose to watch me as I passed.


When I helped to nail boards for the new house
I learned that edi was the word for both wood and truth

in the way kobuglo meant both money and stone
and kuri was both sister and star.

My mother and brother fingered in bulbs,

strung the lines now dangling with green tomatoes.
I runneled the ditches,
a dull orange of hacked clay between plots.
Each evening I draw from a rainbarrel to water the roots.

Where the slope falls at the garden's edge,
high kunai grass, white stones at the river,

the water still and black.


When one large kina shell could buy a month's labor,
the Leahys hired a hundred natives to build
the first airstrip in Hagen. When the brush
had been burned, the ground raked, the workers locked
elbows and danced to flatten the earth.

We think that good things are coming out of the sky,
mothers told their children,
and the dance was to bring the good things down.

Massa Nick said that in three days a ballus — a big bird —
would come. And when it did come, dipping down it made a big noise.
Some ran and hid. Some lay covering their heads
and shit themselves in fear and confusion

A boy of ten was chosen to fly to the coast so he could
return and tell what he saw. Do not eat their food
or you will go mad, his mother told him

He saw white buildings, the sea and boats at anchor.
He took food when it was given and ate thinking
Now I will go mad.

He asked for a bottle to carry some of the sea.
He saw a horse, thought it a massive pig,
and laughed to see a man carried on its back.
He asked for a cutting of its tail.

Returning home, he told what he'd seen.

The people didn't believe, so he gave them the bottle,

which they passed, gravely tasting the sea.

They touched the tuft of horse hair, and the boy's
uncle wound it around a stick for a totem of healing.


I lose sight of the gardens,
climb barefoot from the frustrated order of forest paths.

Cloud forest. Mosquito-buzz,
papery flight of cicadas,
pollen swimming through sunlight.

I do not know where my father is.

Tall stalks of wild ginger, mymecadia covered with ants.

Rising into the clouds and returning
from where his father and mother will never go,
the boy's face must be touched by his mother
before she will believe he is alive.

Only after his father looks hard in his eyes, can he speak.


ade bemara
              place where the sun sets ade
ade umara
              place where the sun rises

I still want the words to say
I have come among you to be saved

to pass between you like food and drink,
to live inside you and be nourished,
to love as god is said to love from the other side of silence.

I have been told that what must
be redeemed has been redeemed,
that love is the unspoken as well as the spoken syllable,

that I need only take heaven into the eye,
love the scabbed knees of the elect,
the palsied spear-hand of the elder.

But for my tongue, tangled as if in gauze,

Aga gogl ki,
              to be ashamed.

They say there are lost spirits that wander the forest
and may not re-enter the fold

though a greater spirit waits in our blood and on our lips
to fuse our fouled scattered tongues

into a tongue of fire that leaps over the land.

How would it be to wander the land and be lost?
What memory would I try to pass back to the living?

What love reach through me,
like a worm through speech, for the world?


So I was very cranky this morning and should have known it was going to be that time of the month by evening, even though it's early for me. Whoo, I will be over bitch mode by the time celandineb comes to visit on Thursday! Went Tuesday morning to a presentation in my younger son's class, the environmentally safe houses they designed in science and what they learned about Native Americans in social studies; my son was in the Iroquois group and read about their customs and religion (each group had made a PowerPoint presentation which they then read from verbatim *g*). As for the environmental houses, one group had designed one for living in the rainforest, another for a suburb like ours, and what did son's group do? A house at the South Pole, complete with a penguin out front! Guess who made the pop-up illustration for that part! Lazar, one of the other boys, had made a palm tree for an indoor room to show how warm it was inside, though son found that inappropriate for the South Pole. Heh.

My mother had said she wanted to come to the presentation and we only told her five times what time it was...of course when we called in the morning to tell her we were leaving right after 9, which is when we told her the night before we would be going, she reacted in total surprise and got there late, missing son's Iroquois presentation and reacting as if this was somehow my fault. However, later in the day she came over with a friend with books of Bar Mitzvah invitations and ended up taking me and friend both out to lunch at Legal Seafood, where we all had excellent salads with grilled shrimp and raspberry and pineapple dressing, so all is forgiven. (I had to go to the mall anyway so I could get Bath & Body Works shower gel while it was still on sale for $3 per bottle!) After I got kids, I came home to review the Q DVD set, which officially came out, I love John de Lancie, even if I had blocked out how incredibly painful I find all three Voyager Q episodes, for a variety of reasons mostly having to do with raging sexism.

One of the yurts at Glen Echo Park where the artists in residence do their thing and show their wares. Younger son thought this one looked like a hobbit home on account of all the plants growing over it.

Here is a more typical, less overgrown yurt.

And here is the inside of a yurt where pottery is crafted and taught.

I meant to fold laundry this evening but was led astray by porn dementordelta, who tagged me for painless_j's Old Fic Rec Meme: If you are tagged, rec one old fic on your LJ, or just gush about how much you love it. Old in these circumstances means written before OotP or by an author who left fandom. The older the better, but you must really like it. Don't forget to give the link so that other people can go enjoy it. Tag five people. Now, I still avoid rec communities and this is sort of that, and dementordelta doesn't know that I wasn't reading fic before OotP -- the HP series were my kids' books rather than mine. However, I can name the one story that singlehandedly pulled me into a particular pairing and thus into the fandom: eponis' "Thirteen Ways". Which I have pimped here before more than once. Certain people who like to make lists of the greatest Snupin ever written *ahem*, usually much taken up with their own fic and that of their friends, sometimes leave this one off, which pains me because I don't think I've ever seen the pairing done better (for the particular moment of a fic, since we all know living canon is slippery). Now, since I hate being tagged for things, I won't single anyone out...but if you have a fic that you think everyone should read, by all means tell people so if you want to and you can blame it on me!

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